Monday, March 9, 2009

A Messed UP Monday!!

Today started out just lovely. Again, Mr. Spring Sunshine gave us a beautiful day. And so as your dear Tierra started off her day by checking her email, her aunt Carolyn was cleaning out the refrigerator. And the conversation went like this.


Carolyn: {cleaning her little heart out} ...."Tierra, when did twilight get cancelled?"
Tierra: {not paying attention, reading an email} ...."um, what did you say?"
Carolyn: "I said, when did twilight get cancelled?"
Tierra: {full attention now} "WHAT!?! Why would it be cancelled?"
Carolyn: "Well, you have it marked on the calendar with cancelled written underneath."
Tierra: {jumps from her chair} {looks at calendar} .............. {silence}
Tierra: {said in a very LOUD voice} LEE SHOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The now much hated turd-of-a-jerk in the above first picture
WAS my so called much loved oldest cousin who is like an older brother to me is now in the dog house. Actually, I'll call it the crap house because he will be payed back for this!

Then, as the day went on, me and my aunt went to the USE to be loved Wal-mart for some grocery shopping. As usual, I had to go over to the fabric section and pick out material for my Easter/spring table runner and table cloth I'm making.

As the lady was cutting my ever so charming fabric,
another messed up conversation began to take place.

Wal-mart Fabric Lady: "It's a good thing you're buying this today because everything is 50% off."
Tierra: "Oh really. How lucky!"
Wal-MartFabric Lady: "Yes. Very lucky because once everything is gone that will be that."
Tierra: "What do you mean everything will be gone?" {starting to worry}
Wal-Mart Fabric Lady: "Wal-Marts are doing away with all their fabric sections in this area."
Tierra: "WHAT!!!! NO WAY! WHY? OH GOOD GRIEF!!!!!! Please tell me your kidding?
Wal-Mart Fabric-ruins my day- Lady: "I'm afraid not.
Everything you see is 50% off until its all gone. All cuts final.
Tierra: {stunned}......................
Wal-Mart Fabric Lady: "Once word gets out everything is going to be a bit crazy
So if you see any fabric you like I suggest you buy it as soon as possible.
Tierra: "This is just a fine mess" "Wait till I call Amber" {I muttered to myself}

So, to end this messed up sad post, here is the picture of the fabric i bought today. At least I got it all for under $8 bucks! Tomorrow I'm heading back to just find whatever I think I might like to use in the near future.

Hey Wal-Mart....You SUCK!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Baby Shower Bring May Flowers???

This Saturday was our first beautiful, bright, & sunny day. It was just so lovely that it did wonders for the soul. Truly. So, what better way then to celebrate with a baby shower, right? My best friend Jenny S. is having her first baby. A little boy to be named Jackson. Jenny and I have had so many late night phone calls, dreaming away the time when we would become mothers. With each new birth and a new baby to cuddle and make giggle at church, i count myself very blessed to be a woman and be able to "hopefully" be a mother of my own someday. Babies are such a blessing. They have the most purest sweet souls that they just smell heaven sent. Well, not all the time...lol and i love it when we can wel-come a new one in. So, as to actually getting back into blogging, enjoy the pictures from this Saturday at Jenny-loo's {nickname for her from me} first baby shower with a real preggo bump :)

:: The Invites I made ::

:: Lovely Jen & Baby Jackson ::

:: Jen's Dad order these beautiful flowers for center pieces for the table and living room table::

:: We LOVED the chicken salad croissants! The table looked ever so charming ::

:: My job was to make the invites and order a fatty delicious cake. Both jobs fulfilled ::
:: Navy blue baby booties ::

:: This is my FAVORITE photo of Jen ::

:: Filling up the plate for two ::

:: Jenny & her Mommy ::

:: Emma Grace with her big blue eyes! She was having so much fun eating grapes ::

:: My Gift. I LOVE doing gifts like this, So I just had to do one for Jen. I got her two baskets filled with all the little things I knew she would need ::

:: The Loot ::

It was a LOVELY day and everything went very well. Just how we like it. No games, just food, friendship conversation and Jen's favorite, Gifts! Thank You to Everyone who came to support Jen. To be continued when the little fellow arrives...

PS. To Jen...I forgot the card for the shower so heres what it said.
I know you, You know me, and I know myself. -wink!

Friday, March 6, 2009

M.I.A. :: Long but read Me ::

{please excuse ALL lack of commenting and posting.
i truly feel bad but please read this an understand.
i will get to every ones post and comment as much as i can.
know that i am truly missing you}

WHY. am I M.I.A? Well loveys, you don't know just how sad I am to be missing in action. As you have probably noticed, I have been rarely posting. This pains me more then it pains you. TRUE STORY! You see, I love my blog. Be it ever so humble, It's still mine and the person that I am, LIKES to post. LOVES it. Sometimes I do go through my blogging funk where I think my creative blogging juices have all been used up. But, for this week and for this month, I HAVE LOTS of posting ideas and actual posts NEEDING to be posted. But, here's the thing. First, Tierra is the type that likes to have a real reason for a post. It really is my number one rule. I cant stand to post about little random things even though we all know Tierra can be random. But, I just feel my blog "looks" more inviting and fun to read and journal worthy if it has a good, creative reason or family/life event to blog about. Second, I like to take the time to make it look good. The post I mean. Sometimes my posts take up to three hours just arranging photos and retyping and such.


But, fellow bloggers this week has just been cram-packed with stuff and will probably get more cram-packed as the months go by. So here are my reasons, excuses, etc etc etc


Carrie's Wedding. Carrie for all who don't know her is my little cousin by three years. I love her like a sister. As all my girl cousins, were all very close. So for her big day, is a BIG deal to me. I opted to not be a bridesmaid {been there done that} to simply be the proud cousin/wedding planner. Just today, I spent all day today and this past Tuesday in Kingsport City with her going to dress appointments and Florist Appointment. The Appointments will just keep on coming and I need to be at all of them. I will BE at all of them. The wedding will be August 1st of this year in a semi-formal evening event.
Next we have cousin number 2. Alexa. Did I mention she's way important too and her wedding is two weeks after Carries? Yeah...Um....BUSY!

And then finally I work at the hospital here in my hometown. So I work almost every day and have not had a weekend off in 4 weeks. YIKES! But so typical for the whole hospital. We're in a freeze zone due to the economy and cant except any one new. Each shift is 4 people down.

What I do is called a Nutrition Tech. I help delivery meals and assist the dietitians on there rounds and keep up with calorie counts and make sure patients don't order what their not suppose to have and keep up with the dietitians notes. Basically I WALK all day long and go in an average of a 130 rooms per day. I've seen just about every thing you can see in a hospital and have developed quite the poker face to not offend.

So, loveys this is the reasons why my poor poor blog has suffered. Even now As I write this I need to go to bed because I have a baby shower to get ready for that I've helped plan and pick a cake up at 9:30 am on a freakin SATURDAY!

i PROMISE PROMISE PROMISE to do better next week. I NEED to blog. Not just for you but for me. So with all this i bid you a sweet farewell. And leave you with a shocker news story....

I had my hair cut again today and it's all the way up past my chin! Report: LOVING IT!

Monday, March 2, 2009

Recall. Recap.

I figured I needed to document a few note worthy news for the bloggity blog. This is what I consider a "filler"post. Not really that big but needed to "fill" in some time between my two planned post for this coming week. So of course, I ask you a lovely plea to check back later.

Recap Number One-

Tierra at Belks Department Store. These two lovelys sang me a sweet melody. On sale for just $4. oo a piece, SOLD! Sweet deal and their my new two FAVORITE pieces to wear.

Recap Number 2-
Cousin Carrie who got engaged this News Years Eve, decided to move her wedding date up to THIS year. Of course I'm the wedding planner. Any one who knows me, knows I live to plan and I plan to live LOL Tomorrow will start our rush on all things wedding-ness shopping and planning. LOVE IT ALL!

Recap Number 3-
For my last and probably most note worthy news, I received a new calling at church. For those not of my faith, Our Bishopric we have in each ward extend a calling to worthy adult members to take on a responsibility in our different activity areas and age groups. Such like a Sunday school teacher or be a counselor to serve on committee for women or men and such. We have lots of different areas and the bishopric, with the guidance of counsel and prayer pick different adults best to serve in all the different areas.

With out further wait, I'm the new Girls rep in my ward for the Single adults. Anyone got any GREAT ideas for activities?

Sunday, March 1, 2009

the return. the results. the standby.

thank you is two simple words that go such a great distance. they can save you. they can heal you. they can bless you. and this week. they have been said alot. as for my aunt, she is better. not great. not healed. but better. she came home this friday and was ready to kiss the floor. then she said if she did, she wasnt sure if she could get back up. i'm giggling at that. what a dear she is to me. as for the results, they all came back negative. but yet in all honesty besides no more heart pains, she still feels pretty bad at times and was still unable to go to church this morning. so will keep praying and continue the antibiotics so they can do there tricks. i cant tell you how sweet it was to come home or well actually wake up to all your most heartfelt and appreciated comments. while in the hospital carolyn was showered with friendly visits from lovely friends. thank you for coming. leah, the 2 liter coke bottle made her night. and the mcdreamy card made mine. to bad it wasnt mcsteamy or edward. amber, the chocolate no longer exists so that tells you it was much appreciated. since friday of our return home we have been spoiled by FANTASTIC dinners from ladies/friends of our church. kristy, i need the recipe to that chicken. we gave if four stars. and last but not least in anyway, thank you jenny b. for coming straightway on wednesday and banging on my front door to wake me up and be my personal venting listener.

so at the end of this week, i say thank you. at the end of every day i say thank you. as for now, i'm fine. we're fine. again, this blog means so so so much to me. so for this week, i'm back. march has some pretty dang exciting stuff coming up. thank you again to all you lovelys.
for you truly are, lovely.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Family Emergency

Dear Friends, Family & Most Lovely blogging Friends,
For the rest of this week, and upcoming weekend, I'll be once again taking a break from blogging. As I write this, it's almost 5 am in the morning my time and i have just spent most of the night and day of yesterday in the ER. I have no clue where to begin and even at this early hour, I'm wide awake. My emotions have been a roller coaster and till this is over, I find that I am holding my breath.

My Aunt Carolyn, whom I live with, means more to me then anything on this earth was admitted to the hospital late last night with the suspicion of a mild heart attack. And possible head trauma. I will not go into the details because i do not want those things on my blog. There private.

For my family which I'm sure you've already been called, Carolyn and I ask for any question answers to come from directly me. Please do not go by family gossip.

As for my friends who know me in the reals, I ask that you please not call me on my cell phone for I will spend most of my time at the hospital, and I can only receive texting service within the walls.

If I seem to come off sharp, please take in note the early hour and my emotions and pardon me on this. This is very hard on me. More then you know. It will almost be two years that I loss ed my mother at the very same hospital do to an unexpected ER visit without in warning just like this. So you can only imagine what it's like to step back into that nightmare again, not knowing what the outcome is. My Aunt Carolyn, even though I have LOTS of family, She is my last mama. My mama number two, and its my greatest fear everyday of the unexpected. I continue to plead for Faith and I'm so thankful for having such wonderful friends. As for rest, keeping my aunt in your prayers would greatly be accepted and sustain me. She is the most humble self giving person I've ever known.

If I don't make it to comment this week, please understand. This blog means so much to me and your comments always brighten my day.

Thank You for your outstanding friendship and I'll be seeing you all again. I just need sometime.

~Tierra

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

For Heather & My first Award

Tonight, I was totally going to blog about some random boring hum drum thing but as I logged on tonight, I received the nicest thing EVER. My FIRST bloggy award! Now, I'm not about to go tooting my own horn here. Instead I want to totally toot, whoop and holla for some one very dear to me. I received my award from a fellow Utah sista from anotha mista, Heather.

I've known Heather for a few years now and I met her when she came out to visit her BFF Leah who just happens to be one of my BFFs. We met and through her visits, and now her blog, we have become so much closer. So Heather, this is for you!

{Please EXCUSE this picture of myself...I was slightly sick and yah...um no enlarging this pic, but for Heather I would do anything and I just happen to actually like this pic of us. The stud in my arms is Leah's little bubba, Noah--I heart Him--wink}

Today she celebrated her 100th post and instead of what I did "writing a letter to my getting lame, slow mover future hubby" or talked about her self as others have done...


She showed her true heart and self by giving awards to others. That right there, if you've never met her, all you need to know or understand is through that sincerely kind act. Putting or Sharing with others first before herself, is Heather. I love you Gal!

Thank You again for my first bloggy award.
I wouldn't have wanted it from anyone else! So Heather, even though on your 100th post you asked that we do the same and share the bloggy award to others...I decided to talk about YOU!
I figured, some of our new bloggy friends needed to be highlighted on why I, and so many, LOVE you dearie!

First, up...Oh and i totally didn't get your permission to use these pics-SORRY!!!--I hope to be forgiven--Cherie, you totally didn't just read that LOL Anywho, that picture right there shows what a great marriage Heather has. I Love hearing the stories of her & Kurt!

Did you know the woman can decorate a cake like no otha? I'm tellin ya, Heather has some skills with her magic decorator tips! For sure. To see more of her cakes, check her blog often, and she always post new cakes but to give you a "taste" see this post Here.

Just when I was already WAY impressed, I saw this on one of her post. When ever some one really close to her has a birthday, she draws them a picture! Check this out. She did this for her sister and I was in just awe.

But, the thing I love, admire, and respect the most is her love for her daughter and her whole giving to being a mother. That little redhead is one lucky little lady for having Heather as her mother.


Heather, Thank you for being my friend. And Thank you for sharing your 100th post to others.My circle of sisters in Heaven would not be a circle without You.

:: Happy 100th Post Heather ::

Monday, February 16, 2009

Valentine Embarrassment Round 2

Well, Ladies, Gals, & Darlins another Valentines Day has come and gone. And yes…Another Valentines Reckless stupidity adventure came to your dear sweet Tierra.
Only this time, this year,
I was so FREAKIN happy to have not been on a date.
I sincerely hope I have not jinxed myself. Next year, if I’m in a relationship…. ladies, remind me to just stay home with the stud and save my poor embarrassed soul from further V-Day escapades.
I’m sure your all wondering...
“Well what in the world happened?”
Oh… only pure embarrassment to my poor single soul. That’s all.

To begin with, you might want to check out my story of last years Valentines Day.
See here-V-Day Embarrassment Story # 1
If you just want a small recap, it’s goes like this. Last year. The Big V-day. Made cupcakes. Then. Outside Movie theater. Very cold. Locks keys in car. Was not happy. End of Story.

So, now let’s recap of this year 2009 V-Day Embarrassment. To begin with I was determined to get my nails painted Red. Why? Well, I’m a girl. A single girl at that and by golly, I was going to do something cute for myself come hill or high water. I get myself all dressed cute at home, and head to the nail salon. After a freakin two hour wait---yes ladies, I was VERY determined---and chatter from a Chinese lady who can’t speak a word of English, I finally got my nails painted.
They turned out quite cute if I do say so myself.

To all Single Gentlemen passing through, notice NO ring on thee left hand?In the words of Beyonce
“if you like it then you shoulda put a ring on it”

I met up with my wonderful wonderful wonderful aunt Carolyn and my stud--nephew-- and great gal friend Jenny B. and headed out to Dinner at Applebees. Lucky us we only had to wait about 20 minutes. Wonderful fantastic meal. Thanks Aunt Carolyn! That great lady bought me a steak with shrimp. Couldn’t have been better. Well, along with a card and $$---you already know people, I’m spoiled----> moving on

As stated earlier, I had fixed myself right nice if I do say so and I was in some awesome heels--Carrie if they look familiar …hehe…they were yours and NO you cant have them back Haha!---I was defiantly strutton my stuff.


Jenny & I had decided to go see the movie “Confessions of a ShopAHolic” ---Loved it!!!--- But, we knew we had better wait to go to the late show after the “couple” crowd died down a bit at the theater so we wasted some time at the mall.


Here it goes ladies…feel free to start laughing anytime. I give you my permission.

As said, I was strutton my stuff in the sweet heels well actually wedges confidently. Then Right in the middle of the mall and main CD store, I was holding my nephews hand and walking when are foots caught and I, Tierra Lynne Coleman took one KILLER head dive in the middle of the freakin teenage crowded mall and fell hard in a VERY VERY non lady like way in front of the CD store!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


{LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL}
Okay ladies, are you done yet??? No?
{LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL}

So there you have it folks…2009 V-Day Embarrassed Escapades. As for the rest of the night, Jenny kept my keys to make sure last year was not a repeat and I highly enjoyed the movie and laughed so hard.
If you want a feel good, clean chic flick that will make you laugh so hard, go see Confessions of a ShopAholic and laugh at her.
Lata.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Dear Future Hubby: A Love Letter


Dear Future Hubby,
{Its late afternoon. My front door is open and the sun has just start to slowly set and its low in the sky. The rays are shining so brightly through my living room door, that I can see the dust shimmer in its setting. As I pause around my dining room French doors, I can see your shadow start across the floor and I pause to just take it in.

As I get to the door, your there, standing devilishly handsome and you smell of a quick shower with a touch of cologne. You smile, and the look upon your face, is the look of someone who fully sees me.

With a large bouquet of pink roses, you whisper…“I can’t believe this is all you asked for.” You take my hand. And it’s off to Dinner. Just a simple dinner at my favorite restaurant. It’s all about the moments of just talking and holding my hand with a promise of not to laugh or get bored through the chic flick you’ve just promised to sit through.
At the ticket line with your slight tease of “I can’t believe were seeing this” I say “You’ll LOVE it” with a very girlish mocking laugh. I’m in heels of course and I’m pausing to think “I’m finally that girl at the movies with her guy in line, looking old Hollywood couple great”

As the movie goes with a few roll of the eyes from you and my sighs of awe throughout the movie, its bliss.


To the end of the night you remember about the card you’ve got tucked in your jacket and take me to my favorite park. The moon is out and it’s lighting up the sky. We walk and for one soft moment love comes so peacefully, it means everything that it’s finally in its place. Knowing that cards mean the world to me, you pull it out with saying” ..And you thought I forgot…” It simple states, I’m here and I love you.”}

So, Dear future Hubby I want you to know….I’m here. Am I sad for today of not having that perfect moment? Sure. But what will this day hold? He’s in the form a sweet six yr. old little boy. He has my heart.

Then it’s in the eyes of a mothers love from my dear sweet aunt Carolyn.

The night will be surrounded by laughter of girlfriends who are always there. Love comes in so many ways to so many people. I just hope that someday…maybe soon…Love will come ….from you.
:: Tierra ::
:: Happy Valentines Day to my Wonderful Lovely Bloggers ::

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Valentines Decor 2009

As promised, here are my simple, small but totally me Valentines Decor. For some reason, I have never been one of those single gloomy girls who cant stand Valentines. I have always enjoyed it. Single or not. Maybe it's the colors or the excuse to get MORE chocolate and get pink roses BUT...BUT...BUT.... this year...I admit it Ladies...its getting to me {head is hung in embarrassment} I know, "HOPE" my time will come. I *promise* I still, will be kickin the day up in my red high heels and I have an appointment to get my nails painted Dark Red. I choose to still have a fun day that day and share it with the ones I love the most. My family and my own personal stud, my nephew. So with that let me share with you my Decor of the ever so humble Crib of mine. Along with some of my FAVORITE love quotes {Did you know I collect quotes?}

"Love Sought is Good, But givn Unsought is better."
-Twelfth Night, Shakespeare

In the living room, I had the idea to make a banner. To my standards, not as good as I could have made it, if had the time, but I thought this was cute. Thanx Good Old Martha! States "Simply Love" to hang from my fireplace.


For the dining room table, I had bought these gorgeous frames from TJ macks and I knew I wanted old romantic "Kiss" pictures for Valentines Day to be displayed. Along with the awesome "diva" damask runner sewn by little me-with MAJOR help from Amber F., Love ya--Then I found these really cute red sparkly hearts and I knew I wanted three-Ann three-jars to display, with the hearts to hang down from. The jars are filled with the love to our souls, Chocolate!



"What a Woman really wants is a man with a wicked look in his eye for her and her alone. From the first moment he See's her, to the last. No matter how long that maybe."

-Anonymous & my personal favorite ! <3>

Here are the pictures up close that are in my picture frames.



For the kitchen, I was doing some late random shopping at the ever so wonderful Target and stumbled upon there adorable, girlie, cupcake cuteness things and I just had to have them in everything! I ADORE the color difference. Plus, those boxes gave me another excuse to buy more chocolate for hands reach LOL

Oh, and I'm a SUCKER for anything "towel" cuteness for every holiday...if you haven't notice.

"For as the sun is daily new and old, So is my love still telling what is told."

-Shakespeare. Love sonnet 76

Thank You all for all your comments & new friendships. Tune in tomorrow for my much planned post on the Eve of Valentines. As you can see, I'm sorta a Shakespeare, old Hollywood romantic with a to much passion for anything damask. Have a lovely Thursday, I'm off to spend the day at my nephews school for his kindergarten Valentines Party. The true stud muffin of my heart.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Signs of Explanation

Ladies, I'm ashamed of myself. Completely and utterly ashamed for being silent since my last post. I have tryed and tryed to post. I'll sit down, come up with something to post and then 10 mintues later I hit delete. Why? Notice sign number 1. I have PMS!!! !! !!! And I'm not afraid to admit this or share this for the matter. Oh Mr. Future Hubby man be glad your not around. One minute I'm not sure. Next I'm mad and then Sunday I was a basket case of tears! All the time seeking chocolate. I tell ya, who ever found that stuff and presented it to the world... You ROCK my life and make me purrr like a kitten. LOVE you! Are you single? Oh, wait your probably dead. My bad.


Then sign number two. I have been so overwhelmed lately and plus with PMS and the "just cant make up your mind" I have done NOT a THING to my house. I'm surprised the health department hasnt came in and taken over! Really ladies I do try. I love to clean and organize....When I in the mood for it. And cleaning products...Oh how I love them and they love me. So please, PLEASE pardon me in mylack of posting So I can get my house clean and get back to life after PMS. I promise I have something good up my sleeve for Friday. I shall return on Thursday though to reveal Valentines Decor. I will post it if its the last thing I do. Honestly ladies, I just cant make up my mind on what to post. Plus, this past week I endured a nasty dreadful cold. And the only note worthy news to report is I went bra shopping last week. Wa-HOO for the Boobs! Oh how they were screaming at me for a good new bra. So, I endured the trip to the mall and made them happy. That is all. That was interesting right?
Okay, so the plan...Clean to my hearts content and then I'll be back on Thursday with V-day decor. Chow!

PS. New Song----> Check it out and grove to it! All last week this was what was singing to me in my head...."if you wanna rock, you rock. If you wanna roll ya roll..." LOVE it!

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

million little elements

we all have a million little elements. what we post. only really shows a few. how do we see our selves. as for me. tonight. procrastination is the game. laundry. cleaning. nope. my souls needing. the fray. love the fray. outside. it's cold. my thoughts. i am a daughter of god. i am a friend. my heart. deep. feelings. slightly yucky. reason. has a cold. yearning. the spring. desire. shopping. friends. their beautiful. comments. you give and you take. blogging. release. this post. a statement. i am who i am. faithful. reader. nostalgic. daughter. friend. simple. overweight. honest. talkative. religious. thinker. singer. worrier. soulful.passionate. sensitive. auntie. serious. sarcastic. positive. generous. disappoint. vulnerable. romantic. trying. dreamer. changer. grateful. prissy. disorganized. family. everything. real.


i am many things. we all are. our blogs. we post only elements. blog for who you are. the elements you want shown.hater comments. ignorance. why. not your life. nothing good to say. nothing to say at all. feelings get hurt. words are powerful. words can hurt. cant be taken back.moments rush. moments move. we all have million little elements. these are just some of mine. and. tonight. its the fray. this is all. and. this is me. million little elements.



In an interview, Isaac Slade from the Fray expressed his meaning behind the lyrics of the song:
"You Found Me" is a tough song for me. Its about the disappointment, the heart ache, the let down that comes with life. Sometimes you’re let down, sometimes you’re the one who lets someone else down. It gets hard to know who you can trust, who you can count on. This song came out of a tough time, and I’m still right in the thick of it. There’s some difficult circumstances my family and friends have been going through over the past year or so and can be overwhelming. It wears on me. It demands so much of my faith to keep believing, keep hoping in the unseen. Sometimes the tunnel has a light at the end, but usually they just look black as night. This song is about that feeling, and the hope that I still have, buried deep in my chest.