no "right" words to make things better........

yesterday. this morning. this afternoon. this evening. and tonight. i knew what today meant. today meant that the boy i liked was leaving.

(image found on my pinterest page- my new favorite quote)

as i sit here an type this, i think about all that has transpired between a friendship of a boy and a girl. me & justin. justin & me.
and with that, my heart hurts. promises were broken. text messages never returned and phone calls never made.
and just like that, a friendship ended. and now he's in a car driving to attend BYU-Idaho.


now i am not saying this was all his fault. things go 50/50. i shall take my fair share....but still.
promises were broken. text messages never returned and phone calls never made.

and with that, there are no "right" words to make this better.

During the Twelve days of Christmas..... (and a shot in the rear)

my body gave me Bronchitis! i thought it was just a cold. so i pushed through it and pushed and willed my body into going out into the cold into stores. to church on sunday and even going into work a shift at the hospital. and from there it went from just bad to worse. to even more worse.

right in the middle of my holiday cheer and trying to finish up wrapping and shopping and such....my body just gave out. i have never had bronchitis before and all can say is my list for santa went from please send me an IPAD too please just make me well!!! and fast! tonight is the first night i feel 85% better. i took a shower. clean clothes. clean hair. awwww much better. on monday when i crawled myself to the doctor first thing that morning (which was no easy task) he took one look at me and some deep breathing to listening to my lungs and ordered a fast shot to the butt of steroids. can i just say i have never loved a getting shot as much as i loved getting that one? holy goodness, i went to feeling like deaths door to three hours later able to breathe and taste a cup of broth. he also put me on a high antibiotic and it's helping tremendously so, but now i think i might be getting a yeast infection (gross)!

after my shower, i took one look at my living room of holiday wonderful-ness that then looked like a sick germ infested snowball of tissues and  immediately went into picking up, disinfecting, wiping off phones, remote controls, spraying furniture and putting blankets in the wash. my living room is now back to normal.

my thankful list includes:

• Gatorade. lot's an lot's of Gatorade.
• tissues (three boxes were used)
• insurance (my shot to the butt and the antibiotic came to a whopping $900 dollars! thanks to great insurance, i payed $12 bucks!)
• disinfecting wipes -need i say more?
• soups- i am a FIRM believer that soups play a key role in getting bettter.
• funny txt messages from friends and family cousins to entertain me.-justin beiber anyone?
• wonderful, sweet guy friends at church to give me a blessing. endless gratefulness for that.
• disinfecting spray. (i have sprayed EVERYTHING!)
• my aunt carolyn who has been my runner to picking up foods and making me soups and getting prescriptions and being there for what ever i needed. I just PRAY she does not get sick!!!!!!!!
• christmas cards. making myself at least get up to go to the mailbox for holiday mail!
• and finally, that shot to the butt! goodness, life savor i tell ya! life saver!!!!

i sincerely hope every has a merry, GERM SICK free christmas. and in the words of my friend Ann from facebook..... 
Merry Christmas....WASH YOUR HANDS!

around here ( living room "mess")

my living room looked like this three nights ago. and it still looks like this as i type. it's my favorite kind of mess. packages starting to pile up. ribbons and yarns and scissors and tape all clustered together. wrapping paper everywhere......it's christmas time for sure at my house! except for the now tissues strung about because i have a cold it's beautiful!

never say never (the fray)

ladies an gents. I, am a horriable blogger. *sighs* oh well. Today i am home with a cold (like what's new) and i decided that i at least wanted to post about my second biggest thing that has happened to me this year. first, i met my favorite actor back in april in person. Then this past week, i was able to get tickets  ((((awesome up close)))) to see my favorite band preform. and when i say my favorite....i mean it!  i have loved this band from the start and and when i heard that they were coming to my area for a concert...I did everything i could to get tickets (the event was sold out within days) for me and my little cousin Hailey who just happens to love them as much as me. the fray. THE FRAY!!!

in case you didnt read that right.....THE FRAY! that's right, me and hailey were rocking out to the fray on december 11th and making are selves hoarse. the night was fantastic! alive! i shall always hold that night close. isn't it something that you can say you've had to big things accomplished in a year?!

here are the links to my favorite fray songs.
heartbeat is their current single. and when they played it that night....everyone went crazy...including myself lol

over my head (cable car)  ||  you found me   ||  how to save a life ||  never say never || heartbeat